Have you ever found yourself doubting God? Perhaps not doubting His abilities or His goodness or His power, but doubting His trust in you? Doubting that somehow, some way, God made the wrong choice in calling you in His plan?
It’s very simple to do, even easy to rationalize. Because, technically, you’re not doubting God. Technically, the doubt is placed on your own abilities or talent. How could the God of the universe, the one whose words bring life, possibly choose you in whatever call that tugs on your heart? How could you possibly make disciples when you still struggle with Scripture? How could you lead someone to Christ when you feel lost yourself?
It’s so easy to doubt ourselves, to doubt God’s choice in us. We look around and think of all the more qualified people that surround us, not realizing that they struggle with their own fear. Looking at the shining examples in the Bible, seeing amazing displays of faith and obedience, we can forget that these are still people.
Hebrews 11 has been aptly named the “hall of faith” through its examples of strong, unshaken people of faith. Abraham left the only place he knew when God called him out, not knowing where his destination would end. Abraham offered his only son, relying on God’s promises for countless offspring. But Abraham was also the man who doubted, who produced a son with his wife’s servant because he doubted God’s promise, who lied and claimed Sarah as his sister because he doubted God’s protection.
Take a look at Moses, who is also mentioned in Hebrews 11. Moses led the people of Israel out of Egypt, faced the pharaoh, led the Israelites during their time in the desert. This is the same man who ran away. This is the same man who told God that he wasn’t the right man for the job. The people mentioned in Hebrews 11 and throughout the Bible are not examples despite their flaws but examples because of them. They are people we can relate to, they are people just like us.
Faith doesn’t mean there won’t be doubt or fear. Faith doesn’t mean perfection. Faith is obedience even in the darkness. Faith is stepping out when you can’t see the road. Faith is listening to the soft whisper without waiting for an explanation. Instead of asking God to find someone else, why not ask for the courage and faith to simply follow Him?
“Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. For by it the people of old received their commendation. By faith we understand that the universe was created by the word of God, so that what is seen was not made out of things that are visible.” -Hebrews 11:1-3